Take a deep breath, exhale and then look around. Look at the people whom you surrounded yourself with, look at what they want to see, examine their perspectives on life. Look at yourself with their eyes. Now take a deep breath again, exhale and look in the mirror. Are the two people you saw the same?
Are you who you are or are you whom others want you to be? It is an enourmously difficult question to give an answer to. I myself had diffuculties with it too. So I left my life behing for 3 weeks, I escaped from my daily routine, from my regular so called friends and what I saw was disturbing, it was like tearing down the walls I spent so much time building around me and the world has changed, my perspective has changed. Every tiny emotion I suppressed over the years came bubbling up inside and made me reevaluate all the decisions I have ever made in my whole entire life. And for maybe the first time, I saw everything crystal clear, I escaped from my cage that I have spent my life in, it was all pretty and cozy, because I thought that safety is everything and so I made that cage my home. And now looking around in the real world everything is so beautiful, blooming and filled with colors, and all I wanna do is embrace it all. I genuinly despise the person I was before, I was so reluctant to see what's really important, I walked around with my eyes closed, and not because I was blind but because I wanted to be, I thought that what I can't see, doesn't exist, so I wouldn't have to deal with it. This is what we do though, this is what my generation does, we close our minds because we want to be cool, we wanna fit in, we wanna be accepted. So we shut down our personality make ourselves be a face in the crowd intentionally and we call it socializing. It's sad isn't it ?! But if we are lucky and if we really genuinly wanna tear down our comfort zone's walls, we can find delirium. If we realize that our generation isn't emotionally honest...we can stand a chance.
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